Day 191

First day of school. I admit to still having a regret/excitement about not going back to school even after all these years. Hollie and I are celebrating her retirement by having a long leisurely breakfast at the Chart Room. We will watch the sea lions play and talk about how the world works. So far she has handled the push/pull feelings well. She was an excellent teacher, respected by parents, co-workers, and loved by her lucky students.

Day 190

The church service was enhanced by Suzanne Pennell adding recorder to the usual music group of guitar and voices. I was delighted to learn that she will be giving lessons beginning next week. Learning a musical instrument is supposed to be a good  brain exercise. Suzanne had an image of taking recorder music to places that have no music. Another learning curve is just what I’ve been looking for. I have finally noticed an improvement in physical energy.

Day 189

I was happily tired yesterday after socializing. After being house-bound for over a week, I was ready to interact with people. The picnic was alright. I did catch up with people that I don’t see often. The union speeches were upbeat and met with approval. Today I’ll start September with church and intentions. I need to separate rationalization from actuality regarding my ability to move more. I’d like to do the PT exercises. I need to improve myself.

Day 188

Today is the union picnic at Beachfront Park in honor of Labor Day. I am a union member and have been forever. For the last six years, Gene and I have attended together. This year he declined. Since his stroke, he scrambles for words and is self-conscious about it. I do that too and I don’t think I’ve had a stroke. Hollie’s intrusive neighbor is making her feel unsafe. Makes me even more grateful for my wonderful neighbors.

Day 187

Yesterday I gave the basics of ULC ministry to Jon and it brought back memories and stories. He is creative and will do well. Gene brought fish that I shared with Chris and Jon. Gene’s photo was in the paper holding the very fish that they had for dinner. Gene is much better since he can get out on the ocean. I like my part, sharing the catch. I am restless, pacing, need to focus and get moving.

Day 186

Walked down to get my haircut and buy yogurt and didn’t need to sit down on the curb. Need to replenish my good bacteria as the antibiotics kill everything. I would like a normal routine day. Basically, I’ve been in the house for a week and that’s enough. Had good conversations yesterday, both e-mail, telephone, and in person. Made changes in the senior center schedule with Julia. Loved hearing from Marjorie, my first BBF back in seventh grade. 

Day 185

I know I’m getting better. I’m restless and looking around for something to do. I still don’t do anything but noticing is a big step forward. I’m tired of myself. Today I’m getting a haircut. It’s time to change it to a shorter cut or one with more layers as it gets heavy. Hollie and I may go to the movies and see The Butler. The reviews have been favorable. I grieve the wasted days being unwell.